End of Week One

Is it the protocol or is it my mindset?  From reading all the other folks out there - obviously this is the protocol at work.  I have not felt hunger - cravings - desire for ice cream at night.  I have not felt deprived on the 500 Calories.  I have asked myself why could I not do this without the hCG?  It is science and after one week I am a believer.  I am down 6 pounds and a couple inches.... Wow.

I am enjoying healthy fresh food.  Right now I broke out the tea and am having a Wild Berry Herbal Tea over ice - very refreshing.

The best thing of the experience is the lessons it is teaching my family.  I was out of control and modeling eating habits that only would lead a to a life of obesity or anorexia.  My younger daughter, 9 years old, she was not concerned about her eating and loved me just the fluffy mom.  My older daughter, 12 years old, I had noticed her criticizing my clothing and different things about me - worse was the habits of skipping meals I had been noticing with her.  I know all to well the red flags of eating disorders.  I will address that in a separate entry.

Day 3: 500 Calories???

So today was the day I would follow the "VLCD" my kids were feeling sorry for me as they saw me cook up 1/3 of one half chicken breast. For the first time ever (and I have done the diet cycles) I got out the postage scale to measure my raw chicken breast.  Unbelievable how little that really equates to.  Wow - !!!

I managed to avoid real people food today by eating my 100 grams of chicken breast with onion before I went.  However, I had to breakdown and eat an apple prior to making my lunch - I think I was hungry.  Made a salad with strawberries and some chicken breast.  I did put some balsamic vinegar on it ( I think that is ok/on plan).... it was quite good and felt full half way through.

I did get hungry tonight and added some cherry tomatoes to my list as a late night snack - since I didn't have any Grissini or toast - I had the calories to spare.

Day 2

Gorge Day 2 ... plan on eating all my red flag foods.  I started with PopTarts. 

The morning shot went well - was afraid of the sting as I had not taken it cold yesterday.  No sting - just a cool sensation.

I was up one pound from the day before.  I found another blogger that I will share my blog with - maybe I will be brave enough to post my photo.  I don't have very many photos of myself because for about 8 years now I have avoided cameras at all costs.  I did let my daughter take a sports bar photo that I will release once I can proudly post an after photo.  Wanted to document the beginning - but not proud of it at this point.

The beginning

I started today. After researching all the papers I had and internet links I think I mixed my first batch of hCG correctly.  I am doing .50 cc of the 5000 hcg taking a break on Sundays to keep from being immune.  I mixed the hCG with 12.5 cc of the Biostat water.  I must admit I was very hesitant to give my first injection to my belly.  It was hard to even tell I had inserted the needle.  As gross as it may be to compare - popping the annoying in-grown hair that appears on my belly hurts 100x's more. So that part of this process will not be bad.

I ate pop-tarts for breakfast.  Chicken Nachos for lunch. Mac and Cheese for a snack.  Bowl of Chili for supper.  2 pudding cups (non-fat) for a snack. And Popcorn at the movie (with BUTTER).  I only had the soda at the movie which for me is VERY good.

The movie I saw was Eat, Pray, Love which I thought set the stage for my journey I am beginning.

Day 2 for gorging I hope to fit in pasta at some point.

I am ready for the loss - my mind is in the right place.

The wait....

I purchased my hCG from Escrow Pharmacy and am waiting and waiting  and waiting for it to come.  I have a colleague share with me this was how she lost so many inches since the last time I saw her.  That was July 10th.  I have been reading and reading and following a Yahoo group everyday trying to absorb all the information I can about this protocol before the product gets here.  Am I scared?  Yes.  I have decided to use the injections versus the under the tongue.  I want to mess with the hCG only once a day and the injection appears to be the way to go. 

It appears the hCG has left Hong Kong and is in Chicago.  I wanted to start it as soon as it came, however, I am traveling the next week and think it best to wait until I return. 

I will use this blog as my journal to document my journey on widdle my middle....